Behind the Music: Leaving

I’m feeling a bit like Abraham lately. By Abraham, I mean Father Abraham from the Old Testament. Why do I say this? Well, my wife and I moved. We moved to a place where we had never really been before, and both of us moved into situations that we’ve never experienced before. Abraham did the same thing. One day God told Abraham to go – God didn’t say where to go, but just to go. And Abraham went. This all takes place in Genesis 12.

I’ve often wondered how Abraham (he went by Abram at the time) felt about moving. He left everything he knew and set out to something foreign. Something unknown. God made him a great promise – he promised Abraham that he would make him the father of a great nation, but Abraham had to have wondered about that, because his wife was barren. I’m sure Abraham was scared, confused, worried…

So Angela and I have moved. We felt it was God’s calling in our lives to take this step, and we know that God will take care of us, but we are still in a place we don’t know. We can take comfort in the story of Abraham. God came through on his promise (He always does). He came through in Abraham’s life, and He’ll come through on his promise in our lives as well. It’s hard to go through times of uncertainty and times of displacement, but we know that we serve a God who makes all things happen for his Glory, and we serve a God who loves us and who has really awesome plans for our futures.

Well, Abraham left, and so did I. I wonder if Abraham wrote a song about it – ’cause you better believe I did…

I don’t know where I’m going
I don’t know, but I’ve been here before
I don’t know where I’m going
Walk out the door

Would you tell me if I asked you?
Would you tell me what you see in me?
Would you tell me if I wanted everything?

It’s the hard part of leaving
All you know, it just fades away
And you just want to see it never change
But you change

Going, not knowing
It’s just so hard to let go

Here’s a bit of an explanation of the lyrics…

“I don’t know where I’m going, but I’ve been here before”

  • While I might not know exactly what’s going to happen in the future here in North Carolina for me, I can read about others (like Abraham) that have gone through similar situations in life. I can read their stories and understand how God worked in their lives.

“Would you tell me if I asked you”
“Would you tell me what you see in me”
“Would you tell me if I wanted everything”

  • It’s no secret that God sees more than we do. I’ve heard so many illustrations about this, but the bottom line is that God knows more than we do, and he knows more than we do for a reason.
  • I’m asking the question here – if I were face-to-face with God, and I could ask him anything – would He tell me what my future had in store? Would he tell me what he had planned? I think so many times the journey makes us who we are, and that if we knew everything we were going to be or amount to in the end, something would be lost.
  • I suppose that in asking these questions, I’m saying that I think I understand why there is uncertainty, and why there is a journey and not just a destination.


  • Leigh Hennen

    Hey Brian,
    I think this is a great song.